Why Won’t God Let Me Fly?

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watch ‘Why won’t God let me fly?’ Grace asked, putting her hand on her mother’s knee.

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http://trimegainternational.com That was a long time ago, over thirty years, maybe forty, maybe more. It was the strangest thing but sometimes when she thought about the past, it was as if it had been scribbled on her brain. Then rubbed out, then scribbled again. Pictures with people all jumbled up so that she couldn’t be sure who was who or what was what. One day her mother had gone. She never came back. Or maybe it was Grace who left her mother.

http://afcmarseille.com/porn/www-xxx-hd-movie-com ‘No, I think she went and never came back,’ Grace said aloud to fix it as a fact, at least for the time being. She switched on the radio, hoping that it would tell her what day it was and other things that might be useful to know. She looked at the mug and remembered what it was. She raised it to her lips and drank the tea, all of it, even though it was lukewarm. Grace rinsed the mug under the tap, feeling that she was gaining control. Maybe the wobbles were going to stop. Some days she felt almost normal. She went back to the window to look out. The woman on the radio was telling the news. There had been a disaster in another country, far away, and the price of food was going up. Grace imagined the prices rising into the sky, getting so high that no one could catch them. She gazed up at the scudding clouds. One looked like a dog, another looked like a woman smiling. But the smile was secretive, hiding real thoughts. When Grace looked down again her neighbour, Rosie, had come out of her unit with her dog, Cuthbert. Sometimes Grace imagined that it was Cuthbert who took Rosie for a walk. This time she couldn’t tell who was in charge or if Rosie could see her. Cuthbert wanted to go one way and Rosie was standing undecided, probably planning to go in the opposite direction.

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http://afcmarseille.com/porn/women-do-you-like-anal-sex ‘Prices are going up,’ Grace said and held her breath.

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click here ‘There’s been a disaster. On the radio,’ Grace said. She wished she could work out the right things to say to people. Words were like presents that you gave to people, but sometimes you gave presents that the other person didn’t want. More than anything, she wanted to share. But it was the hardest thing to do because of the problems of understanding.

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http://afcmarseille.com/porn/layton-benton-threesome ‘Why don’t you use his name?’ she asked Rosie.

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enter ‘Whisky,’ Grace said sitting in her garden scratching her knees, remembering the smell and how she learnt what it was when she fell in love with Josef and ran away to live with him. They had all left her. Or she had left them. Even little Jack, her baby boy, had gone. But he came back. Most days he came to see her. Sometimes it was him, sometimes it was someone who said it was him. Like Rosie, he talked about her tablets.    

watch Grace leaned back thinking about the wobbliness of the world. It made her tired to think about it. She raised one of her legs. It went up easily. She raised the other one. It was as if she were filled with air; she was so light.

http://afcmarseille.com/porn/pale-blonde-anal ‘Please God, I want to fly,’ she prayed, closing her eyes, and putting her hands together as she did when she was a child. She put her legs down and knelt on her small patch of grass. It felt right. The buzzing in her brain had become almost silent. She repeated the prayer again and again. When she finished and opened her eyes, she expected to see an apple tree in her garden; when it wasn’t there, she shook her head.

xxx wife stories husband gives wife to black gangbang She went out to the front of her unit. Rosie and Cuthbert were coming home; she saw them walking up the road. Sitting on the low wall that divided her place from the street, she willed her thoughts to give the right answers. When she went inside she couldn’t find anything that she could use for wings.

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http://afcmarseille.com/porn/risky-business-movie-sex-scene ‘Have you got a ladder?’ Grace asked. She had begun to think clearly and knew what she needed to do.

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http://johanstellerphotography.com ‘I’ve been praying. And God has told me that I’m ready to fly,’ she tells him. This time she knows it will work and she will reach the sky. She struggles and the man – Jack – wobbles and lets her go. Grace raises her arms ready for flight. She takes a little jump and she’s soaring in the air. She is flying back in time, she sees her mother looking up at her, smiling, waving. Grace goes higher, becoming younger. She is a baby in her mother’s arms. She is happy.

http://johanstellerphotography.com ‘Suicide,’ the neighbours whisper to each other later. If Grace were there she would tell them: ‘no, not that, not at all. It was a flight for freedom.’  

Jane Seaford

http://johanstellerphotography.com My novel ‘Archie’s Daughter’ was accepted by Really Blue Books (nothing to do with porn) and e-published in 2012. It has received excellent reviews. Several of my short stories have been placed, highly commended or short-listed in international competitions. Many have appeared in anthologies or magazines. Others have been broadcast on Radio New Zealand. As a freelance journalist I had a column in a magazine called ‘Bonjour’ and sold pieces to the Guardian, the Independent and other British publications. And I am the joint fiction editor for Takahe, a New Zealand literary magazine.